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:( so now what? 28 June 2010

Filed under: Ponderings — Rana Wilson @ 11:47 pm
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Well, all the teaching positions have been filled, and not by me… which begs the question… what does one do after having been so focused on a thing, training for it, hoping and praying for it, and then being denied that thing?  Well, if you’re psycho and unbalanced, I imagine that you do all manner of not okay sorts of things, and while I may very occasionally entertain such notions (really, who doesn’t from time to time?) I’m certainly not the type to do them.

But the question still remains: what the hell do I do now… See, I’m broke… I have to teach as many classes as I do each session (more than the full-timers) just to make ends meet… and now I’m facing the necessity of a new car… a new computer… the large-ish hole in my kitchen ceiling (okay, not really a hole, but an unsightly mess all the same…) the scary downstairs bathroom… you know, all the stuff that adult-type people need to take care of.. Only, there’s no extra fundage…. I’m in no danger of losing my home, as I know a lot of people are, so yes, I know that in that respect I’m blessed and I should just shut the hell up… But I feel a bit betrayed… I mean, I’ve been an adjunct for 10 years, and I love teaching… But I’m not sure I can keep doing it (not because they don’t want me there, but because I’m in my mid-30s now, and I’m feeling the need for a bit more stability…)  So what do I do now?

Where’s that Prince Charming Disney promised me as a kid?  I could really use him right about now…

Okay, yes I know, I am a strong, independent woman, a feminist, and I need no man (on offense guys! I do like you, and you are handy to have around. :)) but I will be the first to admit–I suck at the whole money thing… I just don’t get it…

So, I need a plan.  I’m sure I’ll come up with a plan, I just hope I come up with a plan that allows me to sleep (the 8-class session comes to mind as a HUGE mistake.  but it was fun!) I’ve been doing research, pondering the various tracks I could take starting with an MA in English Literature.  You know what I’ve discovered?  I’m qualified to teach… and do research… and that’s something I’m good at… so, you know, surely there’s something out there.  I actually have two friends both looking into getting their paralegal certifications, and I have a cousin who’s a paralegal, so I’m thinking I might pick her brain.  Because as I understand it, paralegals, in addition to their other duties, do research… but then there’s that whole office thing… gives me the heebie-jeebies…

And I’m applying to a few online colleges and tutoring companies. That should at least take the edge off the financial situation… and who knows, maybe the jewelry thing will really take off!  (I have a new shop name, btw–Definitive Designs by R.Wilson… kinda cool, huh?  A friend came up with it!)  I’m still making earrings and bracelets, I’m working on some lanyard ideas, and I just bought some polymer clay!  I can’t wait to play!!!! (ooh! I rhymed!  maybe I’ll be a poet!  okay yeah, not really… :))

So I’ll keep you posted.  Thanks for reading my wallow in self-pity.  I promise I’ll get it over it soon….



ummm… eek? 21 May 2010

Filed under: Ponderings — Rana Wilson @ 11:32 am
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So, I have an interview today.  An interview that REALLY matters to me… more than any of the others I’ve had this year…And I’m terrified that I’m going to do something to F it up.  Which begs the question… why do I do this to myself?  See, intellectually, I know that I can do this.  I’ve BEEN doing this for 10 years… TEN YEARS!!! And in addition to all the getting ready for school business that I had to take care of this week (classes started this past Monday) I’ve also spent the week planning for this interview.  I have to do a 10 minute lecture demo, a 10 minute online assignment walk-through, and then the interview itself. I have my PowerPoint on Fused sentences all ready, it’s even been proofread by two of my colleagues, and I’ve completely revamped the Lesson 8 info in my online class.  And this is my 3rd interview of the year, so really, I KNOW that I can do this…

But OMG I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!  I know, part of the problem right now is that I don’t even need to leave here for another 45 minutes… I’m showered, hair’s washed, outfit is planned… still have makeup and stuff, but by this point in my life, that takes AT MOST 5 minutes…. So what do I have left to do? Freak myself the F out…. that’s it…. Plus, this is the campus where I’ve been an adjunct for 5 years, it’s just up the road from my house, it’s beautiful, the people are awesome and I SOOOOOOOOOO want to work there.  It’s home… The other three interviews–two were for campuses I’d never been to, and the other is my second home, but it’s 45 minutes to an hour away from me… Really, that’s its only detraction….

I’m an adjunct.  What that means, in a nutshell, is that I do GREAT HEAPING GOBS of work for very little money.  But I love it. In fact, I don’t think you really stay the type of adjunct I am for long if you don’t absolutely LOVE teaching…  Cuz, really, it’s a thankless job.  No bennies AT ALL, and you’re not “guaranteed” classes each session (although that’s not usually too much of a problem–adjuncts outnumber full-timers, and there’s usually more than enough students to go around…) And I’ve been doing this for 10 years… for two colleges…. Yeah, I’m a little crazy…

But now I have a chance for all that to change, and I just HOPE and PRAY that I don’t screw it up royally! So, you know. eek!!!!



Why a blog? 20 April 2010

Filed under: Ponderings,Uncategorized — Rana Wilson @ 9:08 pm
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So, I’ve told a couple of people I’ve started a blog. Most are enthusiastic (although my mom’s comment of “for people to read?” cracked me up. her emphasis was on the “people” part…) but the question I keep getting asked is “what’s it for?”

Honestly, I hadn’t really thought that far ahead, and if I had, I think it was just for me. Like I said, I’m an English teacher, and so I tend to both read and write profusely.But, I don’t just want my blog to be about teaching.  Yes, I’m a teacher, but I’m not just a teacher.  Likewise, I make jewelry… but I don’t want my blog to be just about jewelry… So I guess, if I must categorize myself (although, really, I defy categorization…) I would say that my blog is about me.  About my interests.  About the ins and outs of my life (but not necessarily the daily minutiae of that life).  Some things I hope to discuss is the difficulty I have in pricing myself, the oddities of discussing plagiarism in college classes, what I want… but that’s just the tip of the iceberg.  There’s so much out there that’s interesting to me, and there’s so many things I ponder.  So I guess this blog is about my ponderings…

Should be fun, huh? 😀


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